- I wanted to be out of manufacturing
- I wanted to earn as I work, so sales is the one
- I wanted to help those in need of jobs
it has been 5 mths since i last updated.
have stepped into the working society for a yr now...and frankly speaking, i am pretty bored already...
true, i have got what i wanted but not enuf.the desire of getting more of what i have now is really causing me to feel vr unhappy. discontented, describes what i am now.
this will go away. soon. i promise. just the mindset thats playing the trick. once my passion is discovered, boredom will be chased away.....
what is missing then.
higher increment, more bonus, and monetary rewards are missing.
and now with the current of slowing down of economy, shutdowns. note, with an 's'.i have gt no more leaves, it means, all shutdowns will be deducted by unpaid leave. last yr at this point of time, i remember, my project was fire-fighting. it was madness then. now, total 180degree of difference.
no more con-calls. no more daily meetings.
(these are gd for me, actually, rather than previously whenever i was late for meeting i could see black face of my supervisor, telling me, dont be late again. i hv gt reasons, i dn like being late too!)
i think i am js too used to being bz, fighting and a sudden slow down makes me feel vr unproductive. :(
the only life that i am happy with now :)
though we have our disagreements, glad tt things got solved eventually.
a great company, a good listener and an awesome best friend is what i need to complement my dull life...
before ending this entry,
below is the award that recently received by my team on 26-aug. with that, i have obtained twice star awards, individual and team.
there are no more awards to fight for.
p/s - wishing everyone a gd break this raya!!
selamat hari raya :)
today i learnt tt,
in working life,
there is no such thing as team work.
there is no such thing as working together.
continue working and continue to protect yourself...
things need to let go, den let go. no one's gg to appreciate the committment nor the hard work anyway.
at the end of the mth, regardless of hw much effort u hv put in, the salary js maintains its numeric numbers. so why bother?!
who cares when u work tt extra hrs? who cares when u fall sick? who cares when u MC? who bothers?
oh wait, they DO care. when cant meet target/line down.
so, just work lar!!!
i hv js gone thru a wk of minor depression mode.
true i had a gd rest at home bc in pg but all along i didnt feel right.
my mood swings.
my mind thinks only the negative side.
i duno what is wrong wif me.
it seems tt i hv lots of worries in me. -embedded- with no solutions.
the worries of my life which consists of;
my mom, family.
my financial status.
with my current condition; i would say tt i am gd
my mom, family, all in gd health with gd life...
my relationship, i have quite a stable one...
my job, so far still meet the expectation...
my financial status, no loan shark except for ptptn...
my network, i hv gt plenty of gd frens...
my beliefs, i am still clinging on what i blif...
so what is thr to worry abt?
my mom, family, i cant provide enuf...
my relationship, i feel paranoid & insecure...
my job, lots of pressure...
my financial status, needs more stability...
my network, i hv got no time for them...
my beliefs, swing when something goes wrong or against me...
but me like.