this is me

first and foremost.
a
BIG BIG BIG
THANK YOU

to
ah cheng
for inviting me over for ABC soup tonight.

=]

but
i think the true credit goes to uncle for making the soup lar~

hahhahahhahahahaha

thank yousssssss...aft so long of being away from home, mou tam hou sek. at least tonite i hv got soup from home.
*touched*

tou xia. arigatou. xiexie.

=]

and uncle say tmr got lok mei thong~
*yoohoo*
*so happy*

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not forgetting to thank my sifu who taught me how to make mushroom soup via msn. hehe.

sam.

thanks lots. though u dn hv the chance to taste but my fren say not bad la. stil got room of improvement gehh...pls be proud of ur student la ya...hehe...

as promised, i present to you, the mushroom soup


by the way, today i had a vr delicious lunch.
canton-i serves gd char xiu fan. thanks to my aunt for the treat.

=]

i am so blessed.

this mth has been extremely depressing. i would js wann skip the part.

finally, aft a long wait, i landed pg safely on 21st may. i am home. but all alone.
not much of a difference wen i was bc in sabah.

alone. again.

but it is definitely better to be whr i belong.
at least i could drive down to jln delima to get ah cheng, farlim to get jian or to turf club to get clarissa or terengganu road to find my cousins and grab my favourite laksa.

today marks the second day of my home alone.
for the first time, i prepared myself a meal. though not complete, i prepared the meal.

from going to market to get the ingredients to cooking.

phews~

not an easy task.
waking up early in the morning, trying to get a carpark, going through crowds of aunties and uncles are rather frustating. not forgetting the noises.
needed a great amt of patience to go through all these.

surprisingly, i survived! hahha.

and so, proudly presents my meal of the day
not a scrumptious meal but as i hv said, i prepared.
hee~


MY LUNCH

first time i stir fried chicken. not bad the taste with steam four season beans.

no more rice at home. only brown rice which is a big no-no to me so i had tomyum maggie

=]

MY DINNER

bitter gourd soup.

sobs. failure. too much water dyy~

being a homemaker aint easy at all...
i really salute my mom.

came across smth really interesting when reading stephanie's blog. its a speech by Adrian Tan, author of The Teenage Textbook (1988). He was the guest-of-honour at a recent NTU convocation ceremony.

not the full speech though, extracted what really caught me...

''The next big milestone in your life is today: your graduation. The end of education. You’re done learning.

You’ve probably been told the big lie that “Learning is a lifelong process” and that therefore you will continue studying and taking masters’ degrees and doctorates and professorships and so on. You know the sort of people who tell you that? Teachers. Don’t you think there is some measure of conflict of interest? They are in the business of learning, after all. Where would they be without you? They need you to be repeat customers.

The good news is that they’re wrong.''

i do not know how true this is but at certain extent, i agree. up till now, i cant see anything great in it. perhaps, i really hv lost the passion of all this. jaded, i am. but i really envy those who are in it. sounds contradicting? i know. not my obligation to explain anyway.

lecturers, in the same industry, share the same piece of thought. i might be wrong in my observations of my lecturers in my university but they do give me the feeling tt they value the master students (and the potential master students) more. from the way they try to sell the goodness of masters' degrees.


and for the full speech, click here.

and so i handed in the last paper in my life.

i was in mixed feelings.
happy it was over.
at the same time worried i would flunk the paper. *fingers crossed

whatever it is, i am glad tt i hv got someone to share wif once again.

someone tt i would like to cherish.

someone tt i would like to gif it a try again.

i hope this time i could do better.

had a five-day escapedition.

it was great.
awesome.

but the only drawbc tt i could nt fully njoy

two more papers and two presentations.

anyway, it was a gd one aftall...

thx for the effort and the company

=]

receiving a call from suding was heart warming.
but
today i received a piece of bad news from her.

nth abt me.

nth abt anyone in my circle of frens.

but i am absolutely sad knowing abt the news.
cos it makes me feel life is sometimes so fragile and hopeless...

weeks ago, suding told me abt her best friend getting married and i could feel the excitement she has and today she told me tt the fiance walked out of her best friend's life cos he was not ready for a marriage life.

in the midst of preparation...
in the midst of all hope and excitement...
in the midst of walking together into the future...

and in split second

everything

collapsed.

when she described to me the planning of the wedding, it was like a fairy tale. everything sounds perfect.

and now.

it is left a dream...

=[